Why?

Confusion is an interesting thing.

Why is it that, as a general rule, I have no idea what I want?



And why can't I figure out how to flip this photo around?

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


P.s.
I want a boy to "adore" me :P

Really Grand. Really :D

So I've been fairly good at accomplishing my to do list.

However, I've learned in the process I have bronchitis and my car needs a 1,00 dollar part. Isn't being an adult just grand?

Just grand....

NO REALLY IT IS GRAND! Just... difficult. Extremely difficult....

It's really okay though, I assure you. I know why I haven't been feeling good and hopefully this will be the last thing that I need for my car for a LONG time. (long long long time....)

Who's excited for Halloween (and my Birthday :D)? ME!

Don't you adore Maroon 5?

The End Is Just the Beginning

It's nearing the end of October...

This means...

MY BIRTHDAY AND HALLOWEEN!!!

I can hardly wait!!!!!!!!!! There is soooo much to do. ;D :D

To Do List (by Wed)
-Drivers License
-New Tires (Happy Birthday Me... from me.... poor pocket book....)
-HOMEWORK!!!!! (this should probably be on top)
-DR! Sinus infection... boo....
-Start resume'
-Order shirts and business cards for CCG
-Get Halloween Costume
-Long Boarding with Drew
-Organize Birthday marshmallow night.... :D
-Gym or Run
-Carve pumpkin for date
-Finish song (hopefully for Groovacious Wed. if not for NEXT WEEK... NO EXCUSES)

...etc

You might have noticed I map out the fun things I do. I'm one of those crazy people who actually plans on being lazy or spontaneous.... Strange? Trust me, I know. But I like to have things mapped out tentatively. (I also hate starting sentences with "buts" but... sometimes it happens)

I have a running dialogue in my mind every morning where I map out my day. School till bla.... home work till bla... ... play for break... eat... homework... bla bla....

I like to be doing SOMETHING and I'm not going to wait around all day for you to figure out if you want to do "something" with me.

All right I'll face it... I'm impatient.

So give me a few hours as a heads up if you want to do "something". Really is that all that difficult? The same goes for canceling (and I'm not just talking about boys).

"She's in her cute little hug me mode."

Today is a grunge/glasses day. Yes, I'm exhausted. Sometimes I dress down on purpose just because I can. I can't explain it other than I want the satisfaction of knowing I don't care if I don't impress anyone that day with my wardrobe.

Today someone told me. "I like your looked today. This is a new side of Liz..." After a bit of talking they stated... "It makes me want to give you a hug..."

Then later they explained to someone, "She's in her cute little hug me mode."

I'll admit I still don't know how to take what they said.... Isn't it interesting what other people think of us?

I actually quite like my glasses currently but I hate the restrictions of glasses. They are always such a bother, especially when they get dirty....

Someone on facebook posted something about the fact the only thing they are good for is a dramatic removal....

I quite like glasses on other people but my preference on myself is contacts....

Besides in every cliche movie the "ugly" girl becomes beautiful when her hair is maintained and she receives... (what?) CONTACTS....

It's either that generalization or the matter of intelligence. For some reason when you slip on a pair of glasses you magically become more intellectual.....

"...what fools these mortals be..."

Side Note: I'm so excited for when my orange juice will become slush.... Yum..

AAaaahhh choooo

Bless you... Bless you all :P

Random I Know

Random Facts:

1) I like when boys whistle and cat call. Most people don't like it... Me, I think of it as confidence boost.... Must be doing something right Eh? :P

2) I like to text... usually. Maybe because I like a reminder every once in awhile that someone was thinking of me. However, I hate the pointless text convos....
-How are you? Good. How are you? Good. How is school? (Really we aren't learning anything from these convos so... just ask me directly what you want) Text me and flirt or text me and ask me what assignment you missed. If you really want to know how I am... call me.

3) I wear earplugs to sleep.... I bet if I was to add up the amount I spend on them in a year I'd be depressed.

4) I'm the biggest pansy when I'm sick. Really I just want to be held and drink some delectable orange juice. Speaking of which I have yet to get some. Boo!

5) Facebook and Hulu will be the death of me! I can't seem to concentrate. Why oh why can't I do my homework any more? I don't know....

6) I've started watching Ugly Betty.... Go ahead and mock but I really like it. Guess I relate to the characters awkward, strong headed nature.

7) I'm really picky about when people touch my face. ...especially boys who "creepily trace your features" to show they want to kiss you. Yes, there is a difference between what is okay and what is creepy....

8) I'm really depressed about the lack of heels in my wardrobe this year. I have one pair... one pair! And they don't fit right so they kill me feet. I need some new heels stat!
It's too bad I'm so hard on things....

9) I'm ridiculously hard on things. I've broken phones... calculators.. computers.... I don't know what it is. I've actually made a computer blow up.... Perhaps it's because I'm from a small town and I expect everything to last.... Or maybe it's the fact I throw things around and expect them to be durable...

10) One of my nightmare reoccurring dreams is that my teeth fall out.... I seriously wake up in a panic every time I have it....

Soo...

Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....



Boooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

I'll admit I'm feeling better. But I just want to cuddle up in my bed and I haven't accomplished anything and did I mention....

Booooooooooo....

BLISS?!

People probably assume I'm narcissistic because I blog so much.... I just like to express my thoughts... so yes, OKAY... maybe it's a tad narcissistic.

However, you don't have to read, if you don't want to. :P

The other day I was discussing stereotypes with a group of people. Isn't it fascinating that due to media we have set images of "beauty" yet, we all complain they are unattainable. If we are upset with the definitions, why do we reinforce the fake images portrayed?

Most likely we don't betray the media standard, because we don't really believe they are fake.... We tell our friends that beauty is one thing while we hold ourselves to a different standard.

I've watched others, including myself, pick themselves apart to shreds.

Why?

Perhaps because as a general rule the human race is never satisfied. If it's cold, we want it hot and vice-versa.

When we look in the mirror... what is it we see? Or do we refuse to look at ourselves in the mirror...

Are we hiding?

I have the tendency to get absorbed with the troubles around me and try to take on the world. Then I ignore the other issues and I pull away from people.... I think it's an innate characteristic of a lot of people....

So I pull away and then I retract.

Guess what... I'M OVER IT


(the only thing I don't really like about this video is the guitar under that water. I can't help but cringe... poor lovely guitar.... Put isn't George just adorable... I know he's a cartoon but still... :P)

P.S.
Love these two...

ADDICTIONS

So I'm learning to longboard. It's quite fantastic, I think it's going to be my new addiction. I'm going to be soooo sad when it's winter and there is snow on the ground. I guess that's when snowboarding comes into play... it's just SO expensive. I guess I'll just have to find a boy who works at Brian Head this year. :D

Have any of you been longboarding? It works your calf muscles... no joke. I'm wearing highheels today and man... my right leg is tired. I know it's silly but I'm slightly worried my right leg is going to get ripped and my left leg will look all small in comparision. I know it won't happen but it honestly feels as though my right leg is twice the size of my left.... Ah! I'll be lopsided... ha ha

I'm also playing my guitar more. It makes me happy, especially when I notice progress. I'm still fixing my song and I'm starting a new one.

Don't you love the things in life where you can actually see a difference? PROGRESS!!

WOOT!

SOMETIMES

Sometimes I allow myself to get offended
Sometimes I get frustrated
Sometimes I buy boys icecream on their birthdays
Sometimes I have to present something to a group of woman (tonight)... and I FREAK OUT inside... because I'm not prepared...
Sometimes I wonder why I waste my time on things like facebook
Sometimes I procrastinate homework
Sometimes I realize I should fill out my graduation papers

....

Usually I sing
Usually I place on my facade when I'm upset
Usually I don't have anything in my fridge (at least recently...)
Usually all I need is a good boy hug when I'm irritated (thanks random stranger...)
Usually I go for walks at night
Usually things work out (I'm so glad the other day went well ;P)
Usually I push people away
Usually... I'M RIGHT... HA HA...

....

However, I ALWAYS wonder what people are REALLY thinking

So tell me... what are YOU thinking? Sadly, I bet most of you can't REALLY tell me... And why not? It's okay I all ready know... I don't want to know....

Obsessed

You know the songs you get obsessed with...

Here are a few I'm OBSESSED with currently :D (seriously I love music)

"Forget You"




"Goodbye Blue Sky"


"Banana Pancakes"


P.S.
In case you were wondering about the Groovacious update... I wasn't so pleased with my performance but oh well....

Live and learn... let go and move on. Anyway at least next time I won't be so nervous....

Plus yesterday was oober stressful so I forgive myself for not giving my all.. at least today is finally over and guess what? LIFE IS FANTASTIC!

I Adore the Rain

I love the rain.... I adore the rain. It makes me happy!!!

:D

All I need is a fabulous umbrella.... Too bad the one I want isn't in stock....

This week is a... big week. Let's hope everything goes well *crosses fingers*

I'm singing tonight at Groovacious tonight. Oh man, I feel nauseous....

Akkkkkk...

Synopsis

So today was an epic day... CONFERENCE*! I LOVE it! Saturday's session was grand to. I missed the afternoon session but I'll catch up soon.

This weekend was grand. Here is a brief synopsis....

1) I went to Vegas Friday after school.... fantastic! Why are Cedar guys such pansies in comparision to other places?

2) I was introduced to a new kind of icecream, which I adore. He was right... I loved it. I think I'm obsessed!

3) I went to my nieces soccer game. Way to be Sarah!

4) I had to cancel a double due to some major conflicts.... The girl and I planning thought the men's priesthood meeting was at seven rather than six.... Oops


5) Went with the girls to Wingers. Thanks for the pie Jamie! (He's so sweet!) :D

6) I've also discovered I'm a Pink Floyd fan. I remember a long time ago listening to one of their songs and thinking it was quite... interesting. But I've realized I really love them!!!

7) Went to a dance. It was fantastic! I love dancing.

8) (Today, as in just now....) I logged on to find this comment on my last post... considered deleting it... but decided against it.

"/this is without a doubt one of the most lame blogs i've ever read"

October 1, 2010 2:17 PM

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My thought process went to:
a)You are always on the computer....
b) You secretly hate me and decided this was a way to lash out (I know that thought is a bit narsistic)
c) Ummm... you were bored and feeling irritable (or your just kind of rude... either way)

At first I'll admit I was pissed... I though one of those lame childish things, "I know I am but what are you?" I considered lashing out in a major way... (I decided this way works better. Please forgive me for being weak....).

Then I realized this person actually did read my blog and decided to comment but didn't have the guts to not be anonymous.

So...

Dear Anonymous,

I hope your life gets more interesting soon. :D

Love,
Liz

p.s.
Really your still reading this "lame" blog? ....


8) Excuse me but I have to go... I'm headed for a walk. And don't' worry I have a body guard ;D

*The General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints is some of the most important regular meeting of that religion. It is held twice annually, on the weekends containing the first Sundays in April and in October. The April meeting is known as the Annual General Conference, and includes annual statistical and financial reports not included in the October meeting,which is called the Semiannual General Conference. Both in a given year have the same number, which is equal to the number of years since the Church was founded in 1830; thus the April 2005 meeting will be the 175th Annual General Conference, and the October 2005 meeting the 175th Semiannual General Conference.

for more info go to: http://www.wordiq.com/definition/LDS_General_Conference



So I quickly recorded this in my room.... It's kind of bad but one of my friends has been after me so.... Be gentle... ha ha.

Also... I messed up a few times so... um... i apologize in advance....


Okay... So the sound is really bad and my hair was kind of bugging me. Like I said... gentle....