The More it Stinks

I have this problem. You see I am unable or inapt to utter one simple word....

..."No"

Two little letters, and yet I struggle at the pronounciation. NNNNNOOoooo

I first came upon this mental disability through my genetics. My mother can never say "no". I'm getting better but usually never actually say the word. I inform the indiviaul that "blah de bla bla... I regretably can not bla de bla blaaa." It's not like I tell someone I'm sorry but I'm going to the hospital or that I can't go on a date because I have to "wash my hair."

No my dear readers, I do nothing of the sort. I'm simply giving a basic reason instead of using the blunt... "N" "O" word.

However sometimes I need to be able to say that one little word and I can't seem to be able to. Alas!

Don't you love when someone is telling a story and they don't share the details.....

"This thing is like an onion. The more layers you peel, the more it stinks."
-George from Sienfeld

AAAAHHHHHhhhh (minor melt down)

-Today I looked into my bank account and wonder... where the heck did all my money go? (Oh right... my car)

-How am I suppose to pay for the problems with my car, pay for schooling, housing and STILL remain out of debt?

-One of my classes is counting for exactly zero credits.... (ER? How does this work) So that puts one of my scholarships on hold. And no one can fix it at the moment.... AHAHA

-My other scholarship is having a problem going through.... I'm at a mojor stand still.

-My living situation is still unknown to me and there are problems on both ends.

-Am I doing everything right so I can graduate this spring? Is everything under control?

...I feel sick...

On the brightside at least I didn't have to work today.

To Do List:

• Mailing address for scholarship ASAP
• Contact Professor Challis for credits for PR class
• Contact second scholarship
• Do I have to apply for a GPA scholarship here?? SHOOT!'
• Mail off letters
• Organize room
• Figure out living situation. Work through PROBLEMS..
• Determine budget for school semester
• Get car checked out... How much?
• Cry... okay not really, but I'm starting to freak out.

Fun to Do List:

• Lighthouse?

Marshmallows and Pennies

Did you know:

-They sell ginormous marshmallows now? Yes... they are at Walmart. They are called campfire marshmallows. I can't wait to buy some....

-The sheep tunnels in Cedar underneath WalMart are FANTASTIC!

-My glasses (as in for my eyes) I ordered STILL haven't arived.

I don't understand:

-Why girls cat-call other girls. Number one I'm sure they all aren't homosexual... so... why would they? Just wondering. Because it seems like every night some girl yells something. I don't get it.

-Why people scream at people when they drive by in cars. If you don't cat call a girl... don't make other noises.... Last night someone screamed "Baaaaahahaaa". ...crazy people.

-Maps. At least not very well. Don't give me street numbers... give me a landmark. :D

Do you know what's stupid:

-I went to a drive through the other night. I bought a small ice cream cone and when I was receiving my change, I recognized I hadn't received any coins. Doing a quick calculation in my head I realized I at least (AT LEAST) had twelve cents coming.

My friend turned to me and stated that the window guy said he didn't give me my change because he thought I wouldn't want it. Now I can understand if it was a penny, even two pennies I can understand, I can even understand if it was up to four pennies. But 15 cents? Is this guy slowly just getting tips because he keeps assuming people don't want their change? How dare he not allow me to make the decision myself!

So I turn to my friend and tell her that I rightly so want my change. She of course believes I'm being a diva and pulls into the next window where I will receive my ice cream. I then lean over after receiving my cone and bolding inform the nice woman. I would like my change.

It took them about 8 to 10 min to get 15 cents. I very well could have given him the 15 cents as a tip but because he refused to allow me the decision... well I HAD to get it.


I ask you what is the fast food industry coming to?

-whisper- just plain crap

Currently I'm just killing some time before I head over to celebrate my niece's Birthday. She is eight now! Crazy!

Today has been a lovely Sunday. I woke up late but I was only five minutes late. So I'm getting better at sucking it up if I don't get ready all the way....

So cough *I'm totally not finishing getting ready to go to my nieces Birthday party* Okay okay... I am. But come on! They'll be taking pictures.

My life has been fairly uneventful. So I've really got to change things and shake stuff up. I'm starting to feel a little crazy and bored....

Last night I hung out with a group of friends and we just chit-chatted until the wee hours of the morning. While we talking I was playing with one of my friends Ipod touch aps. It was this awesome chart that would play music depending on what boxes you highlighted. Some of the technological stuff they come up with is truly fascinating.

I went on a hike to a short canyon up by the bike trials (up here in Cedar) this week. It was nice and then we had lunch. I'm going through the sheep tunnels this coming week with someone, so that will be exciting. I also plan on talking to the major about the lighthouse ASAP, the problem is my work schedule sucks to figure out an information. Oh well, where there is a will there is a way. :D

I'm getting my hair cut so I'm excited for that.

Work is going swell. I sold quite a bit of jewelry yesterday, so I was rather pleased. I've been receiving some nice compliments, so that always fantastic.

My room is still a complete disaster. I've started cleaning thousands of times and then I find a way to better distract myself. The problem is I have too much crap for this small space. The problem is... my room really isn't even that small. It just has NO closet space. So I don't know where to stick anything so I'm STILL not yet completely unpacked.... And I have more stuff.... lame.

I have to sort through my clothes. I have all of these hand-me-downs that people have given me over the years that really aren't my style so i don't really wear them. The problem is I'm too cheap to actually pay for a wardrobe I really like.... Thus, I'm sure my wardrobe will always be part me, part not.

Closets are interesting things. People keep clothes they don't like for reasons they don't really understand or know. They keep Birthday shirts and Christmas sweaters they don't like because "So and so gave it to them." They keep articles of clothing that don't fit because perhaps one day "they'll fit into them again". I have this theory that maybe my torso will shrink so I can fit into some of my old clothes again....

Then you have people like me who are pack rats.

• We keep papers from high school because... well you don't really know why
• Study guides from college because maybe someday when your in your career you'll think, "Ah yes I wrote a paper on that... hmm... what year was that... Where did I put it?" -Cough: Yeah right-
• Little trinkets we played with when we were kids because well they have so many memories attached to them
• A broken camera someone gave you,which you keep hoping will magically work so you won't have to invest your own money into
• Old makeup that you'll use "someday", since you paid x amount of dollars and someday you'll use it for Halloween or something
• A curling iron because maybe someday you'll grown your hair out again
• And some -whisper- just plain crap. I mean... er treasures :D

I Swear I Don't Have Horns

This summer is going swell. I haven't done too much stuff on my goal list so I need to get ON THAT!

Mostly I'm just taking this summer slow. I was so exausted once school started last year, I think this year I'll be ready to jump back in and swim.

We've started Tues. volleyball so that's epic. I stopped ready Pride and Prejudice... I know I know. I just couldn't get into it. So now I'm reading an easy read and I'm sure I'll go back to it... sometime.... ha ha.

Work is taking up most of my time. I work Mon thru Saturday from 10:30 untill around six. Selling is an awesome accomplishment. I love the feeling I get when I help convice someone to purchase something.

...I feel like I've picked the right career path.

My new manager (my previous employer had to change things up a bit) teases me quite a bit. Usually I try not to talk to much about selling because I'm sure it's boring to other people. Also I don't want to make people think I'm bragging all the time. The other day I was rather excited about selling things, my manager said, "Makes you wonder if your a bad person, doesn't it." Ha ha.

Sometimes I wonder if I am playing the devils advocate. I'm trying to persuade people to buy things that I might not necessarily buy myself. However, I think I'm only persuading, it's up to the people to choose what I'm suggesting or not to. Ergo... not my fault. :P

I love it. I feel like I'm getting better at selling... more convincing is probably a better term. ;) However that might make me sound evil... ha ha. I've sold jewelry pieces quite often last minute. So people are starting to make spur of the moment decisions. Unfortunately, sometimes (which is usually rarely but still sometimes) they later come back (usually the next day) and return it. I'll admit I feel bad but if it's a jewelry piece that comes back I feel really sad, like I failed.

Shesh... sometimes I feel like all I think about is work. I even dream about work. Is that weird? I'll dream about patrons doing strange stupid stuff. The other night I dreamed about people touching the glass and getting it dirty with their fingerprints. In the dream I was really irritated and kept trying to clean it. Last night I dreamed I kept selling all the jewelry pieces so there were empty spaces in the display cases and I was getting irritated..... I know LAME dreams huh? Ha ha ...

Shesh on my time off I'm still stressing about it....

The thing is I'm someone who is rather determined and when I get excited about something I think about it quite a bit.

So I'm continually trying to think of tactics to become better. Yes... even in my sleep. Ha ha...

TO DO LIST: DEADLINE JULY 22
-Determine who is in charge of lighthouse
-Grocery shopping
-Clean Room/Bathroom
-Vacume my car "MISS POLLY"
-Get a group to play ultimate frisbee
-Start going to bed on time...

"PollyAnna"

So I've officially named my car. At first I'll admit I was mistaken with her gender but luckily I got it all figured out. :P


Her name is PollyAnna and when ever we cruise, we jam out and party. I love it! :D


I'll post a picture of her once I have a camera.


I'm enjoying being in Cedar. My job working with the festival is great. Although I'll admit I'm having a hard time adjusting and being a boring Ol'... well just me. ha ha. However, I've starting learning sales tactics a bit more. I love the accomplishment of hitting a sale.


I'm still trying to figure out who all is in Cedar. Sadly, most people aren't here. I've decided I"m going to start hanging out at the library for a bit so I can meet more people. I'll probably just read and chill on the computers....

At the moment I'm reading Pride and Prejudice.... I'm slightly having a hard time focusing on it. I like Jane Austen's writing style but I'm feel as though it isn't descriptive enough. However I'll keep at it and maybe I just have to get adjusted to her writing style. So far... so good. :D

Things I'm excited for this coming week:
-Hitting up a fair that's in town tomorrow
-The opening social for work, it should be fun. It's always fun to dress up. :D
-Getting a snowcone sometime this week (seriously I think I'm addicted)
-Talking to someone about the lighthouse
-Heading to Ephraim. I'm heading for an eye doctor, which is not so fun because it's expensive but on the brightside... I'll be able to see. :D
-Watching at least one of the plays at the Festival
-Tuesday Volleyball. Woot woot!
-Getting my clothes from Deb's... I miss the rest of my wardrobe
-Getting new strings for my guitar


I must get to bed. Hope all is well in the world wide web....