"And go after the one which is lost, until he finds it...."

Don't get me wrong I love Chirstmas. I love love love Christmas. I'ts a time that I shouldn't allow myself to get overwhelmed...

but the truth is I still do.

Cause sometimes:
You feel ugly and you suck
Sometimes... your car sucks and you're pretty sure you should just sell it because you can't afford everything.
Sometimes you wish you were completly done with school...
Sometimes you SHOULDN'T care... but guess what you still do, which completely sucks...
Sometimes your too late...
Sometimes....

In order for this post to not be a complete "Woest Me-Pitty Party"...

Let me just say I am grateful for Christ and Heavenly Father and I know I'm apart of a bigger plan and picture. I just wish sometimes life happened like I wanted it to.

Sometimes I wish I learned my lessons faster.
Sometimes I wish I figured it out before it was too late.
Sometimes I wish he cared.

Resolution, Realistic, REWARD

Recently I've been considering what I want to do for my New Years Resolutions. Yes, plural. I've made several goal lists over the last few months.

I have a tendency to make a HUGE list.... After I create this gigantic list, I have a revelation to cut it down. So I create a "New" list. Next, I make a "Realistic Goal List" because let's face it I'm overzealous.

The problem is I get overwhelmed with my "To Do List" and so I accomplish nothing. Therefore, I have created a solution, the "Reward List".

I'm going to create a chart so I can cross of my success. And instead of feeling dreadful if I don't do anything, I'm deciding to use a reward system.

Yes, I'm aware it sounds slightly adolecent. But here's the thing: It's not!! :D Admit it... I'm a genius... ;P

Each goal or activity will give me a different amount of points which I will be able to use to reward myself.

For example:
21 points could allow me to eat out
133 could let me purchase a shirt...

And instead of mapping things out saying I'll do something daily, weekly, biweekly, monthly.... bla... I'm just doing to DO. And when I DO something I'll REWARD myself... :D

Here are some things I've been considering to add to the "Better Me/Reward List"

-Game/movie night We'll rotate when ever we choose. I just need to find a location...
-30 min on the guitar
-Performance at Groovacious
-Eating fruit or veggies I need to be more healthy! I'm basically addicted to sugar...
-Morning Prayers
-Pool competitions at the institute building (the kind with the "eight ball")
-Going swimming at the SUU's PE building I LOVE LOVE LOVE swimming but I have this dreaded fear of people seeing me with out my makeup(It's above snakes, public speaking [It's probably around top fear number 5 or 6].) I'm pretty sure I'll give myself 5 points for this task.... lol... maybe 10.... Although the points will only count if it's at the school PE building (or else it would defeat the fear).
-Working out at the gym

Are you working on your New Years Resolution List?

p.s.

School is out... for now ;D

Remember When

Remember when:

-Homework took fifteen minutes

-Boys were "icky"

-Being in trouble consisted of getting sent to your room or putting your nose against the wall

-Getting ready in the morning took five minutes or less

-Your mom use to make shapes out of pancakes....


Ahhhh to be a kid. At least my mother still makes shapes out of pancakes!

Apparently new technology has made waffle makers that have shapes. Our Bishop in my ward has one...



Can you say magical?

P.S.
I still think boys are icky :P

P.P.S.
It took me forever to think of kid things that I don't do currently.... What can I say, I'm a kid at heart. :D

maybe I just suck at convincing myself

I'm sick... AGAIN... boo!

That whole idea about telling yourself your not going to get sick (once you start feeling sick)... thus far hasn't worked.

Maybe I just suck at convincing myself?

"It's My Turn to Decide"

I adore this song:




Sooo I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO BE DONE.

...I've completely lost my focus.....

*Poof*

It's gone... Come back... I need you until next week!